I'm Not Dead

Hello everyone. No I did not die. Ice storms and absolutely no energy have befuddled my computer time. But I am here at this moment so I will try to publish some form of a post.

For some reason today I have been thinking about a blevy of different things. It all started at lunch. I heard the song by Darrel Worley “Have You Forgotten?” it’s about 9-11. Oddly enough, maybe it was the hormones, but I felt more for the people killed back then today than I ever did before. I got to thinking of what it would have been like to be there going through all of that. Then it got me to thinking of the complete idiocy that led to that day. In my mind all of the world’s conflicts can usually be traced back to one thing…well two. One: Religion and Two: Difference of opinions/choice. Now I have studied many different cultures and religions and the one thing I have always found is that most of the world worships the exact same thing/God. We give “God” a different name, face, beginning etc. but in the end we all believe in a higher power (besides those people out there that don’t think there’s a higher power). The difference of opinions comes with the fact that everyone thinks they’re “God” is better than everyone else’s “God”. These differences are even found within the same religions. It just seems completely idiotic to me that nobody can seem to grasp this fact. And nobody can seem to grasp the fact that it is okay to be different. The “Gods” truly made it interesting by giving us freedom of choice.

Okay well those were part of my thoughts from yesterday. Whatever other “deep” thoughts I might have been having are now gone into oblivion. I am now back to the simple thoughts of “I hope I don’t get sick” and that the cherry cheesecake I saw down in the clerk’s office looks really good. I do not understand why pregnant women have to lose their minds. I didn’t have much of one before but now I’m really bad. LOL

Actually this morning I did get to thinking about something other than food on my way to work. I got to thinking about the past. It is so funny how we let our pasts affect us in the now. So many of us let our pasts haunt us and we constantly compare the past to the present. This is completely unfair to ourselves and anyone around us in the end. So many times we tend to remember the past the way we want to instead of the way it actually was. Granted sometimes the past was really that good but most times if you’re really truthful with yourself the past really actually wasn’t that great all the time. If most people are like me, when you remember something about your past you remember the good things and you keep the bad things locked away in a tiny box and lose the key. But lately I have found that forcing that locked away box open can be a really good thing. If you allow yourself to open that locked away box you realize how much you need to quit comparing past to present and just live for the day. You realize you have to let yourself be who you are now and take people for what they are at this time. Everything changes and as creatures of habit that is always hard for us to remember.

So there you have some more deep thoughts. Or as deep as my thoughts can get :P But I think I smell smoke from thinking so hard so I’d better get to work :D I hope everyone had a wonderful New Years and stuff!! I had a great birthday trip, didn’t win any big money at the casino but that was okay, I didn’t really lose any either. I still don’t feel 23 though.